So, FINALLY, my novella is out! Check out His Allure, Her Passion:
In his father’s eyes, Dylan Deveraux is just a playboy spending the family fortune on prostitutes, alcohol, and fast cars. Because of that, his father forbids Dylan’s presence at the ball that will mark US launch of the family automobile company, strategically scheduled on Valentine’s Day.
Hayley Allen is a failing model with an anxiety disorder, and she has the worst luck in the world. She always ends up in the hands of cruel designers and photographers—at least, that’s what she tells herself. It’s better than admitting her own failure. Desperate, she would do anything to help her career—even go along with the pretense Dylan suggests….
Longtime friends, Hayley is the only one able to put up with Dylan’s foolishness, and he appreciates that, but not in the way her heart wants. When he approaches her with his idea to crash the Valentine’s Ball as his girlfriend, she jumps at the chance to be in the spotlight and help Dylan impress his father. But will the charade leave her heart unscathed, or is this just more of Dylan’s bullshit?
Dylan could have kissed her forever, and he would have, weren’t it for Dorant.
“Perfect,” the photographer said, destroying the moment. “And that’s a wrap. We’re done here, people.”
The kiss slowed, their hands drew back, and finally Hayley pulled her head back, breaking the kiss, her wide eyes on his.
Damn, he missed her lips already.
She walked away without hearing him. Perhaps, it was for the best, since he wasn’t sure what to say. He felt he needed to say something, to fix them, to fix their relationship.
Hayley, on the other hand, didn’t seem eager to fix anything.
I hope you like it! <3
A couple of weeks ago, my friend Jaime Morrow wrote a blog post called What to Write? As I read her post, I just nodded, as I understood every single word and feeling she spoke of. Then I remembered about Andrea Hannah’s post about writing the book after the book of your heart (thanks Jani and Dahlia for posting the link!).
(Bear with me, I’ll connect these two topics in this sorta venting/ranting post)
See, the thing is, I don’t think I wrote the book of my heart yet.
Ever since I decided to take writing seriously, I wrote *does the math* 6 novels (Destiny Gift, the one I’m self-pubbing next month, was #4), 4 novellas, 2 short stories, and several chapters and scenes that never became anything. I started about 10 new wips, wrote about 20k words in some of those – even 40k in 3 of them, I think – but never finished them. I have a folder with ideas – I just went through them the other day. There are hundreds of ideas there, and some of them have detailed outlines and even 300-500 words scenes written down … If I dove into them, I would have what to write for the rest of my life, no doubt. But none of them call to me the way I want to be called.
Right now, I’m working on two wips – one is 20,3000 words long, and the other is 27,200 words long – but they don’t call to me either. I have these moments when I get in the zone and write 2k or 3k words non-stop. But then I skip a day or two, cause I can’t get into it again. And these two wips aren’t new. I’ve been working on them for quite some time now. Though I would love to finish them NOW, I’m getting the feeling that I won’t. That these two projects will be the ones I pick in between other projects and take forever to finish …
During this journey, I found out that though I love and write contemporary, my heart is on the fantasy/paranormal department. Side note 1: I think that also influences the two wips I’m working on now – they both are contemporary. AND I just found books that have similarities to these wips.
My first 6 novels were fantasy/paranormal – you can see about them on the WIPs page. In order, I wrote Sands of Hope, Dark Pact, Princess of Magic (which isn’t there and never will be. It helped my writing A LOT, but it’s a generic story), Destiny Gift, Gypsy Heart, and Amber Energy. Then I wrote 47,000 words of Warrior’s Legend … and noticed it was too slow and started on the wrong place, and I should rewrite it all. But by then I was revising/editing Destiny Gift, preparing it for submissions, and I didn’t get to rewrite all the stories I wanted to.
Besides being my first serious manuscript, Sands of Hope was my first manuscript in English – so you see why it needs to be rewritten. My English will never be perfect, I know that, but it got so much better since then. The story also needs a BOOM, you know. I have to work on the outline, to include a bigger mystery … Still, I love it. I love the main characters, and the setting (Ancient Egypt, yay!), but now that I know how worldbuilding should work, I’m afraid of rewriting it. What if I mess this up? What if people read it and say “ha, it’s not like Ancient Egypt” … I know nobody will know that for sure, but still. I don’t want to sound like I’m an expert and get it all wrong.
Dark Pact may become the book of my heart some day. It’s high fantasy, which I love, but I don’t think I’m ready to write that yet. When I first wrote it, I was a newbie and had no idea how difficult it was … The story is different, unique like my “Megan” said. I wrote the 120k words that makes this story in 20 days. That’s how much I love it. BUT when I think about it, I want to change some details, pick up the pace, and the worldbuilding is also “wrong” … like any other, I want to rewrite it.
Princess of Magic was about a girl who found out she’s a mage, and a princess! Heard that one before? Yeah, I know. The story was bleh, but I think here was when my writing took a turn.
The next one was Destiny Gift. I love Destiny Gift – and I wrote it quickly, which means I was into it, I breathed and I dreamed about it. I think it’s good enough, otherwise I wouldn’t be self-pubbing it … but I know it’s not THE ONE.
Up to here, getting 6k words per day was normal. There were days I got 8-9k words. It felt good. Even if only half the words were usable. IT FELT GOOD … BUT here’s where everything changed. Here I became more active online. Here’s when I let the agents and editors’ wishlists influence me. Here’s when I met other writers and found out a few of my ideas were like their ideas.
I still managed to write Gypsy Heart without that influence, and I like this manuscript. Even so, it should be rewritten (I already have the new outline). But the plot is about a girl finding out she’s a special kind of Gypsies, with special magic, and there a tiny mystery that leads to the climax, and a bigger surprise there. That’s a lot going on, but it’s like all little stuff. It’s a nice, fast-paced adventure, but nothing in here is a BOOM. Maybe just the very end. AND there’s the whole girl finds out she’s not exactly human – which is way overdone.
Anyway, after Gypsy Heart all my ideas came with “what agent would like this?”, “are there other stories out that are similar to this one”, “is this genre crowded?” and other questions that really mess with my self-confidence. Then there was the submissions calls from small presses, and more agents’ wishlists, and contests with specific samples/entries.
Confession time: I haven’t finished an entire novel in almost a year. For someone who wrote six novels in less than 2 years, that’s HUGE! Yes, during the last year I finished novellas and short stories, I worked on revisions and editing a lot. But no novels. I feel like a failure because of that.
I can’t seem to focus long enough on one idea to write it for long. The problem is, I don’t think any of my ideas is good enough anymore, they don’t have the BOOM they would need to make it, to get an agent’s attention, to get an editor’s attention. Then I have a new, shiny idea … just to find out there’s a book that is about to be released that sounds just like it. And my mood goes down the drain again …
I know that writing these new ideas, even if they don’t have the BOOM, is better then not writing, that “wasting time” writing a manuscript that won’t sell isn’t actually wasting time, that it will help improve my craft … still, I really didn’t want to waste time. And I know that sounds ridiculous, especially in this career.
I think I keep waiting for THE ONE to hit me in the face. Look! New, shiny, PERFECT idea! With lots of BOOM! If only it was that easy … I think I elude myself that now that I have two novellas out, that everything I write will be publication-worthy. Worse: I think people, especially family and friends who don’t understand about writing and publishing, expect that every word I write from now on will be publication-worthy. Ha! I wish! I know that likely will never happen. Still, I can’t help wishing it …
One good thing of all of this mess is that I know my writing is improving. Last September I received an email from a known author telling me “Your voice is so rich, and your worldbuilding absolutely lush.” I won’t get in details of what she read and how she read it, and who she is … But you bet my confidence got a boost! And my CP and dear friend Jani keeps telling me that she notices my writing improving with each new thing I send her to read. Btw, Jani, I <3 you. So, see, I’m getting better. I think. I hope. The problem now is what to write?
Next, I should write DG#2, which has an outline already, since DG#1 is releasing soon, and I don’t want to have many months in between them. But I would rather write something else before it, so when I can busy my mind writing DG#2 while I’m querying this one. I hate not having another manuscript ready …
I would like to rewrite Sands of Hope and Gypsy Heart, and continue my Into the Darkest Fire short, cause there is a novel behind it, and come up with a BIG, SHINY idea. All at the same time. Dreaming, much? Side note 2: Into the Darkest Fire is about witches, witch hunters and ghosts … and, as you may know, there are thousands of books about that kind of story out there. I know, I know, I should bring something new to it, write it and stand by it. It’s easier said than done.
For real, I just want to start something and WANT to finish it. Even if it doesn’t have a BOOM. I just want to like it enough to finish it. I want to feel like I need to be writing it, cause I love it, cause I can’t get enough. I want to remember, to relive the days I wrote 6k words each day until the damned manuscript was done, cause I just couldn’t stop. I miss that!
Side note 3: I just did some math, adding the word counts to all main manuscript I wrote, and started, etc. Total = 800,000 words. I bet it’s even more, if I really search for every 1000 words I wrote here and there. I don’t know about you, but 800,000 words seems like A LOT!
Anyway, if you read it all, thank you for putting up with me. This was a long rant/venting …
And here’s to finding a WIP that inspires me again ;)
Today I have the honor of hosting my CP Priya during the blog tour of her newly released book, The Dracian Legacy!
Nicknames: Prino – Don’t ask…. It was a High School thing
Where do you live: Boise, ID
Your favorite dessert: Cheesecake!
Your favorite TV series: Supernatural all the way =)
Last book you read: Never Too Far by Abbi Glines
Last movie you watched: Bourne Legacy
Last song (or album) you bought: I knew you were Trouble by Taylor Swift
A book/series you could read over and over again: The Covenant Series by Jennifer L Armentrout
Coke or pepsi? Neither, I’m more of a Crush girl
Day or night? Night owl
Pen or pencil? Pencil
Summer or winter? Brrr…. Summer
Cat or dog? If I don’t say Dog, Koda, my 5pd yorkie, is gonna kick my behind… DOG
Tea or coffee? Neither… Can I have a glass of water please?
Plotter or pantser? haha, Total Pantser!
When did you first realize you wanted to be a writer? Earlier Feb 2012.
What are you working on now? I’m working on a NA Contemporary romance involving Biker dude, flirty roommate, and a girl that’s been running from past and can’t seem to trust anyone to hand over her heart. I’m a Panster, so my stories always change, but it’s secret so, shh… Oh, also Dracian Legacy, Book 2.
If you decided not to be a writer, what would your other dream job be? Why? Actually my dream job would be writing.
What is the scariest thing you’ve ever done in your life? Hmm… Probably attempting to go tubing at Bogus Basin. Yeah, I didn’t even get on that tube, I chickened out before I was pushed down the icy slop.
Who is the one person that has singlehandedly inspired you the most in your life? Wow… That’s a hard question. When I was younger I used to watch “Mahabharat”. There’s a character named Bheesma. His character believes in keeping promises regardless of the consequences.
What is one talent that you’re hopeless at, but you wish you had? Ice skating, Roller blades… Anything skill that links a non-friction ground with my body =)
What is one trait or physical characteristic that you are proud of/love about yourself? I treat others the way I expect to be treated.
Do you have any suggestions for aspiring writers? Hold you head high, keep kicking when you don’t think there’s anything to be hopeful about. It’d be worth it at the end. Trust me =).
About the author: Priya Kanaparti was born in India, grew up in Detroit, and is now living in Boise, ID. She attended Wayne State University for her undergrad degree in Bachelor of Science in Biology, and University of Phoenix for her Masters in Business Administration. Priya works as a project manager in software field during the day and lives in the world of her characters during the nights and weekends. She had found the love for reading and writing early this year, when she stayed home with her year old and needed something to occupy those ‘downtime’ hours.
She loves playing tennis on a good summer day and chess during the cold winters, but reading and writing has become a year round hobby.
She lives in Boise with her husband, son and a Yorkie. Dracian Legacy is her debut novel.
Genre: YA Paranormal Fantasy Romance
Release Date: February 14th, 2013
Blog Tour Dates: February 12th, 2013 through March 15th, 2013
Availability: E-book and print format
Count Word: 85,000
Cover Designer: Regina Wamba at maeidesign.com
Ren and Axel are caught between two powerful magical races: one destined to end the bloodshed, the other out for vengeance.
Seventeen-year-old Ren Pernell is prophesied to end the war between the Dracians and the Telalians. So when a Dracian, Axel Knight, is sent to find and bring back the prophesied one before she turns eighteen and Telalians discover of her existence, unexpected sparks start to fly between the two. Once Ren finds the truth behind Axel’s arrival, she wants everything to do with him and nothing to do with his mission.
Things prove to be difficult as Ren’s life is constantly threatened by forces that are beyond her control, including the leader of the Telalians.
With the clock ticking and Ren’s life in jeopardy, it is no longer just a mission for Axel. It becomes a personal endeavor to save the only one he’s ever loved. In a heart racing ending, they must find a way to evade the preordained war that won’t also end Ren’s life.
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